Thursday 20 December 2012

Jumaat yang mulia...

Hari ni mengikut calender mayan suppose to be the end of the world... itu cuma ramalan... tp Allah Maha Berkuasa... kalau end, end la... kalau Dia rasa belum masanya, belum la masanya...

Duduk makan sarapan di kedai mamak sambil tunggu makanan dibungkus untuk anak-anak, datang satu kumpulan budak-budak sebaya Sang Bijak.  They were asking among themselves what to have and sambil tu tanya berapa harga nasi lemak, berapa harga roti canai etc. End up ada yg order ais kosong and nasi lemak, ada yg roti canai saja, ada yg teh o ais saja.  Aduh sayu nya hati Xena... anak-anak Xena tak pernah consider harga bila nak makan dan boleh order apa saja mereka nak makan... bila tengok anak-anak yg perlu consider costing untuk sarapan di kedai mamak, rasa sedih sangat...

So, I did the necessary... I hope they had a good breakfast... :)

~bersyukur~
Xena
21.12.2012

Monday 10 December 2012

Numb...

Adjusting, compromising, tolerating, giving in, accepting, agreeing, swallowing, crying... and along the way my heart has become numb...

No feelings... no beatings... just a lump of a flesh... no soul... no nothing...

My life ahead is just an obligation, a responsibility... for the sake of my children's happiness, for the sake of my other half's happiness and for the sake of my family's happiness... nothing is about me anymore... it about about others, others and others...

~heartless Xena~
Monday
10 Dec 2012
6:35pm