At the low side...

Sad and depressed...
Feel like nobody understands me...
The hurt inside, the need of tender loving care...
Been providing TLC to the loved ones but when I need some, who will provide it to me?
I feel alone...
I guess in life it is like that, nobody to care about your feelings but yourself...
Heal yourself... Just take your time...

~low Xena~
31-Oct-11
5:54pm

Should I or should I not?

Last Wednesday, Deepavali day, GBB did the discovery scuba at a pool located in Cheras. It was awesome!

My other half who has phobia of being drowning also managed to passed the mini course, which made me really-really pround of him.

My daughter had no problems at all and it did surprise me a bit as I never expected her to be able to do it after she saw my panic episode.

Now the question running around my head is that should I persue to take up the course for the diving license???

Hmmmm so tempted!!!

2 x 4 hour classroom
1 written exam (MCQ)
2 x 4 hour pool session
3D2N in the island for open sea test
That's all what's needed....

Should I or should I not????

~dilemma Xena~
28 Oct 2011
6:28pm

It's hard but I will try my best...

I have to be strong...
I won't feel guilty...
I am doing this for me...
Ignore those guilty feeling...
Just do what you think is right for you, for once...
If they love you, they will accept you as you are...
If they love you, they will be happy for you...
You are not negleting them by doing this...

~selfish Xena~
20 Oct 2011
5.44pm

Indeed a stressful day today...

A few things that add up to my stress level today:-

1. Blocked nose - both my nostril are blocked due to this cold I'm having now. Breathing thru my mouth and I feel like my O2 level in the blood is low.. Suffocating!!!

2. Failure in submitting an online submission - been trying to submit an application since last week. Contacted the helpdesk which was not very much of a help. Hopeless helpdesk!!! I finally found out the problem and it was the officer from a unit unrelated to the system developer who explained the root cause of the problem! Sad la you people....

3. System error for the online system was due to my IE version that is lower version than recommended. I need IE8 but our office uses IE7. Apparently we are not allowed to upgrade to IE8. Then how???

4. People asking stupid questions to me - I'm like... Errr duhhhh

5. Can't join my Bodystep class - as I'm not well, I didn't want to stress out physical body. I want to recover fast!

6. Rained heavily in the evening hence the traffic is horrandous!

7. My nose is still blocked!!!

I hope tomorrow would be better...

~stressful Xena~
19 Oct 11
6:50pm

I am glad that you have moved on....

I think you have finally accepted the fate of your life. Good for you. All the best and may Allah bless you always....

~relieved Xena~
19 Oct 2011
3.12pm

Hmmmm alaihai...

Baru sekali je merasa naik...

What I did last night...

Last night I went out with my girlfriends after not seeing them for almost 3 months. We get together quite often but lately we didn't get the chance to meet up as we were all becoming busy career ladies.

Anyway, we met up at Fahrenheit 88 (opposite Pavilion) at California Pizza Kitchen, our favourite hangout place. Usually we will hangout at KLCC but since our favourite restaurant has moved to Fahrenheit, we just had to move our butts!

As always we ordered the atichoke dips but I must say that it didn't taste as good as before. The ambiance was not like what we used to have. I guess things won't the same anymore... Have to find a new hangout place you guys!!!

Since Fahrenheit doesn't have a surau (yes, annoying isn't it? The more reason for us to find a new port!) we had to cut short our dinner to adjourne to the surau at Pavilion. After solat, we continued our meal for dessert at the cafe facing Fahrenheit (I forgot the name of the cafe!). There, we were like checking out our make up pouches. Can you believe it? Macam budak teenagers jer... But I must get those eye charms la! Thanks Iza and Pnutt for introducing those to me... My eyelashes looked gorgeous...

The best part has yet to come. We went to the MAC counter as Iza wanted to buy her eyeshadow. The rest were like trying on this lipstick, that blusher... It was really fun!!! We were like a beauty consultant for one another. Then our next stop, Bobbi Brown... There we bullied the sales girl, Kelly, asking her to apply lipstick to each of us, with the ones that suits our skin tone. And guess what happenned next??? Each of us bought ourselves a Bobbi Brown lipstick! Well, not everybody but just me, Emy and Elia. Iza got herself the mini party brush (ke apa ntah!) and Pnutt resisted herself from buying anything because she wanted to buy them at Sogo so that she could also collects her Sogo points (yes, I have crazy friends!).

It was really fun shopping cosmetics with your girlfriends especially those you have known for almost 20 years. We have been through thick and thin. Our next project is to get Kelly of Bobbi Brown to conduct a makeup workshop for us! Can't wait for that one to happen...

I love you guys!! You guys rocks!!!

~made over Xena~
12 Oct 2011
8:59am