About life....

Life.... reality.... facts..... a mixture of the three can be quite overwhelming....

Too many things are happening out there.... things that we may think is extraordinary, but actually a normal thing in life. But I wonder, why must it happen that way? Why must that thing be a normal thing?

Thinking about it makes my heart feels heavy. Betrayal is what I hate the most in life. I am a loyal person by nature. Well, at least I think I am. I can be a loyal friend, I try to be a loyal wife, I am loyal to my company and more importantly, I will try my very best to be loyal to my religion and my God. Loyalty and commitments are like siamese twin.... They come hand in hand.

Being loyal, especially to my spouse, who is my life partner, my bestest friend, my saviour as well as the father of my kids, it is very difficult to betray him. Eventhough there are times that allow me to do so, the guilt eats me up, and that kills me even worse. Being in a marriage means that we have committments in life, not just to our spouse, but to our kids as well as to Allah.

This blog is mainly to remind myself on my purpose in life, especially my marriage, my relationship with other human being especially my husband and my kids. I will try to be as loyal as possible, and fulfill my responsibilities as required of a wife, InsyaAllah.....

Along with loyal, another good friend of it would be trust. Trust can be a good thing when is handle in a good way. However, since it is a good friend of loyal, betraying trust can be very, very damanging. At the moment, that is my greatest fear. Thinking about it makes my heart feel even heavier. What if my trust have been betrayed? I can't even think of it as it is unimaginable.......but for sure, I think I will not be able to forgive nor forget whoever has betrayed my trust, whoever they are.....

~worried Xena~

Today's scribble....

Today is Christmas Day... Even though we don't celebrate Christmas, but it has always been one of my favorite festival. You get that christmasy feeling, a good feeling of sharing love, kindness and warmth....

My other half had to work last night as well as today. He has to be on standby as the office is moving the server room. Me and the kids just hang around the house, doing things that needs to be done. I cooked for lunch, and then shoot to the nearest mall to buy plastic cover for my kid's text books.

Life have been rather hectic and boring lately. Everybody seems busy.....

Last Wednesday, had my appraisal with my boss. Basically, it went on well. One thing about my boss, to her, the most important thing is what other people feedback about us. Every year, we are suppose to send out emails to colleagues and other bosses to get feedback about yourself with regards to what have we achieheved in 2009, what were our strength and what are the area for development. My feedback was good, it was better than the last time, so my boss was rather proud. So, I hope I will get a good bonus and a good increment next year!!!!

Then, Christmas Eve, the VP's secretary announced that we are allowed to leave the office by 3pm that day! That is also something new to the company. At least, something right?

Ok la, nothing much to say further... till next time!

~well rested Xena~

What I watched yesterday....

Yesterday, we watched AVATAR. It was excellent!!!! This was the first time that I watched something without knowing what is the movie all about. We watched the 3D version of the movie, but honestly, the 3D effect made us sick! For once I got motion sickness....

It's about human race trying to invade a planet call Pandora, to gain the valuble mineral located beneath the Hometree, the sacred tree of the local people of Pandora. 90% of the movie was computer generated, and the creatures are really-really amazing and scary, or rather, beyond imagination....

Basically, the message I got from this movie is that we, the human race, are very cruel people towards the environment, our planet, it's creature in it, towards other human race. We have done so much damanges to our mother earth, to the animals living in it, and to the human as well. All misery in this world is due to our action... and it makes me sad....

Anyway, I would strongly recommend you guys to watch this movie. I am planning to watch it again... the normal 2D movie...

~Xena~

There's nothing I could do....

Looking at my friend's face in the office today, makes my heart drop. There's some sorrowness in her eyes, eventhough she seem to potray a happy face.

I really pity her... pity her trust of her husband. We had a chat recently, and deep down I think she knows that her hubby is having an affair. I think she is able to accept it. But what I am sad is that she believes that her hubby will tell her ie be open about it. And as of the day that we chat, she believes that the 'affair' has not happen yet. That is what I am really sad of.... I mean, here she is, believing and trusting her hubby, and yet the hubby can betray her trust by fooling around with another girl. That is what I cannot accept. But what can I do.....

~sadden Xena~

A nice weekend.....

Friday

Did a bit of laundry and then went to my parent's, just to unwind. We then went out that evening, to do a bit of shopping. School uniforms, school bags and school shoes. Nabeel had difficulties getting his uniform, he's too small! Alahai, Nabeel!!!! We did feel the pinch of getting stuff for the kids for school. I wonder how they do it, those with more than 2 kids????

Saturday

Went to my kid's school to buy their books. Adoi! Terasa peritnya.... After that, we laze around at my MIL's place. As it was my BIL's birthday that day, we decided to have dinner at Kg Baru, the whole family. Yum, yum... it was great! Dah lama tak pekena nasi lemak kg baru....

Sunday

Today we didn't go anywhere. We just wanted to laze around the house, doing nothing. My friend came over, to borrow my plates and cups for their trip to Linggi next weekend. And she asked me to bring her to our normal tailor as she needed to repair her hubby's pants. I was thinking, 'It's nice to have some company....', so I decided to have some guest for lunch. Menu wasn't anything fancy, just simple homecooked meal, but it was worth it! Such a lovely bunch!

~satisfied and fully rested Xena~

Ekkkk eleeeeeee.....

Ekkkkk ellleeeeeeee.....

Siot je! Budak marketing nak kena betul lah.... macam bebudak....
Sometimes I don't understand the marketing team... They know they have cross the line, seek our consultation and we have given our advice, but still proceed with their idea. Haaaa bila terima surat warning dari KKM, baru la terhegeh-hegeh....

To the marketing team, pandai buat lubang, pandai kambus... jgn nak finger pointing pulak!!!!

~annoyed Xena~

What a weekend....

Last weekend was packed!

My other half spent time with his buddies in JB, having his men day out.... so, I spent my weekend with my two precious one...

Friday, before my other half left to JB, we spent time in KLCC. Watched 'MySpy', which was ok la... not brilliant, but ok. I also got a handbag which I have been eyeing for quite sometime. I guess my other half feels guilty about leaving us behind that he got each of us something.... hehehehe bagus jugak ek!

Anyway, Saturday was suppose to go to a friend's daughter's birthday party, but the traffic was really, really bad that I had to turn back. We then spend time at my mother in law's, then send the kids to their piano class and after piano class hang out at a friend's place. She stays in a condo, so we took the opportunity to laze by the pool. At least I get my time off, and the kids had fun with their buddies. See, everybody benefited!

Sunday was to my sis's place, she buat tahlil and house warming gathering. Ok la, got to see relatives yang dah lama tak jumpa.

So, that was basically my weekend lah... hectic as usual....

~Xena~

I don't know what to do....

In a dilemma....

My good friend's hubby is having an affair. He has a girlfriend. Should I tell my good friend??? How much I wanted to, I can't. Because the consequences of telling is greater... More people will be jeopardized... I got to find out about that affair pun through somebody who is not suppose to be telling me.....

Huhuhuhuh... I feel so sorry for my good friend....

God Bless me and her husband....

~Dilemma Xena~

What happen after the trip....

After we came back from our Bandung trip (Wednesday 18/11), worked for 1 1/2 days. That friday evening (20/11), we were busy at Kak Sadar's house, helping her preparing for the big wedding. That night, we helped her with the bunga telur.

Saturday (21/11) was the nikah day + tahlil. Alhamdulillah, with one go, Apiq and Aini were officially husband and wife. Sunday (22/11) was the kenduri. That weekend was really-really hectic!

We took leave on Monday (23/11), just to rest, but till Tuesday we were still tired. I think the tiredness from the trip overlap with the kenduri weekend!!!!

Worked for 3 days, and then it was Hari Raya Korban.....Sunday (29/11) tu pulak, my cousin got married. That wedding was rather sudden.... so, that weekend was also gone.....

The following weekend which was actually, last weekend, was Aini's kenduri at Apiq's side. Adoi.... the past 3 weeks was just terrible for us... not a bad terrible kind of thing, but it was such a hectic period for us!!!!! Until today, I have not sorted out my life back to normal....which is why I have not been updating this blog....

And finally, yesterday was our 13th Wedding Aniversary.... we celebrated at Victoria Station with the kids, and the kids enjoyed themselves in the locomotive. I think it was the first time I brought my kids to Victoria Station.

What happens this weekend, you might ask????

Well. my other half will be spending the weekend with his buddies, and I will be spending quality time with my kids.... Friday will be movie day, Saturday got a birthday party to attend, and Sunday to Mastura's house for a kenduri.

*Sigh* I dont remember when I had a nice, relaxing, not-doing-anything weekend!!!!!

~Exhausted Xena~

My Bandung Trip.... 15-18th November 2009

I have not given justice to my blogspot..... Have not been updating it like forever!!!!

Well, let's start with my vacation to Bandung. Basically, it was a great trip. The kids had fun, I had fun shopping and I think my hubby get the break he wanted....

Day 1 - flew to Bandung early morning, so we reached the hotel about noon. After checking in, we walk to the nearest padang restaurant. The food was excellent! After lunch, we thought of taking the cab to Pasar Baru. We ended up taking the 'Angkutan' - it's like a small van, but loads of people can cramp into it. Here, a photo of us in the Angkutan....


We went to Pasar Baru, there it was a shopping haven!!!!! Bought some telekungs, coffee table runners, piano runners, etc. etc. etc. Then, at night we went to the nearest mall, just to look see, and ended up having Pizza Hut for dinner... how adventurous can we get????

Day 2 - Cousins and aunty from my hubby's side, came over from Semarang, which was great. It was like a mini-reunion for us!!! Our itenary for the day was pure SHOPPING... hahahahha... We went to Jl. Dagor for the Factory Outlets, but after a few shops we realised that it was nothing to shout about. My cousin suggested we go to Rumah Mode instead. That place is not bad. Here are some photos....





Lunch was at Rumah Mode, the food was pretty good. Then, we continued our shopping spree to Cibaduyut, the place where we get leather products like belt, shoes, handbag. However, to be honest, the quality sucks! After Cibaduyut, we moved to Jl Riau, for another round of Factory Outlet. By that time, we are sick of factory outlets!!!! Dinner was sundanese food, which was ok lah!

Day 3 - The most interesting day... we went to Tangkuban Perahu. Such a nice sight! I loved that place... however, being up there with the strong smell of sulphur, made my head beat like a drum.... terrible headache up there! Despite the pain, fortunately, I still could enjoy the view because the view was incredible....



After Tangkuban Perahu, we had lunch at Kampung Daun. That is another place that you should not miss when you are in Bandung. Such a nice place to have your meals. The food is nothing to shout about, but because the ambiance is great, somehow you kindda enjoy your food!
After the good lunch, we headed to our last shopping place, which is Toko Tiga. Here is where you can get good quality jean (vs those you could get in Chihampelas!). By then, we were soooooo exhausted!

Day 4 - Back to KL.... as soon as we reached home, we were flat tired. Not to mention, flat at the pockets as well!!!!!

Overall, the trip was great! Can't wait for my next trip which is scheduled June 10, but this time the trip is just for the ladies. It's mama's day out!

Ok la, till next time....

~Xena~