Wednesday 17 March 2010

In Memory.... HAZLIN JAMIL, my ex-MRSM buddy....



On 17th March, 2010 around 11.30pm, Hazlin passed away, after being in coma for a week or so.... It was one of the most devastating news I have ever gotten in my life so far....

Hazlin, as I know her, was a happy-go-lucky person. She was not afraid of being herself. She was one of my best buddy in MRSM Perlis. She always walk like a rockers, with her ponytail and she didn't care what people say or talk about her.

Not many knew that she was suffering with SLE. I only gotten to know about it when friends were informing about her coma. In fact, one of my friend who were still in contact with her recently didn't know! Being her, she didn't want people to know about her condition even she was already being admitted to SJMC in Feb. That was Hazlin.....

I wanted to visit her last Saturday, but I didn't have the guts to see her in that condition. Yes, it is selfish of me, but I just wanted to remember her as what I know her in MRSM. I am sorry Hazlin, for not being at your bedside when you were struggling in CCU. Please forgive me. But my doa was always for you....

I hope her husband will be strong during this time of hardness for the sake of her son who is just 9 years old! My prayers are for her family...

May Allah place her with those who are beriman....

Al-Fatihah....

~Xena in the mourning~
18th March, 2010
8.16am

Monday 15 March 2010

Family Vacation 2010

EEEEEEeeeeee Can't wait!!!!

In two days time, we are off to the Gold Coast... a long waited vacation, just the 4 of us!

~excited Xena~
16th March 2010, 11.39am

Wednesday 10 March 2010

Ya Allah! Kau selamatkanlah kawan ku.....

My old friend is in a coma now.... I am very worried and sad. She is an old friend, a friend whom I have not met since 1990. She was one of my good buddies when I was in boarding school, and now I heard such bad news about her....

Give her strength, Ya Allah!

~so low Xena~

Monday 1 March 2010

Monologue....

- Hurt
- Sad
- Dissapointed
- Unfairness
- Selfish
- Ego

All these negative feeling is killing me. So, please go away negative feelings. Go far, far away.....

Look at the bigger picture....
Be the bigger person.....
Look at the positive side....
Look at the bright side...
Don't just think of your feelings only.....
See those happy faces.....

I'm sure all has been considered including our feelings
I'm sure there is a good reason to it
I'm sure it will benefit everybody
I'm sure it was not easy
I'm sure it was for the best of everybody
I'm sure, I'm sure, I'm sure....

May Allah bless me always.....

~Self consoling Xena~
Tuesday, 2nd March 2010, 9.38am